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posted : Monday, March 18, 2013
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又站在你家的門口 我們重複沉默 這樣子單方面的守候 還能多久 終於你開口向我訴說她有多溫柔 雖然你還握著我的手 但我已不在 你心中 我真的懂 你不是喜新厭舊 是我沒有 陪在你身邊當你寂寞時候 別再看著我說著你愛過 別太傷痛 我不難過 這不算什麼 只是為什麼眼淚會流我也不懂 就讓我走 讓我開始享受自由 回憶很多 你的影子也會充滿我生活 我並不懦弱 你比誰都懂 雖然寂寞 這會是我 最後的寬容 抱緊我 再抱緊我 這一份感動 請你讓我留在胸口 別再說 是你的錯 愛到了盡頭 是非對錯就讓它隨風 忘了所有 過得比你快活 我真的懂 你不是喜新厭舊 是我沒有 陪在你身邊當你寂寞時候 別再看著我說著你愛過 別太傷痛 我不難過 這不算什麼 只是為什麼眼淚會流我也不懂 不要再說 或許這是最好的結果 現在分手 總好過你不愛我一拖再拖 鬆開你的手 離開你左右 我向前走 這會是我 真正的解脫
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posted : Monday, February 11, 2013
title : Of patience. where time will tell.
goodbye.
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posted : Sunday, February 10, 2013
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Wish you were here. to accept me. to show that i was special.
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posted : Saturday, February 09, 2013
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Assignment submitted at 1159. A heart pounding moment.
I couldn't fathom why did I choose this module? I wanted to improve my critical thinking and writing hence I took up this module. However, I am aware that I am not good in writing and choosing this is gonna increase the chances of jeopardizing my own grades, especially when I intend to obtain the best grades I can for my final semester. I have classmates providing me warning about how tough this module is gonna be and the past number of failures is high. But I still went ahead with it. I guess I choose learning and taking the risk then choosing something safe? Well, I don't know what was going on in this stupid brain of mine.Or perhaps I want the best of everything. without realizing that I may end up with nothing. Now, this must be it. Damn! |
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posted : Friday, February 08, 2013
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Finally i managed to clear off $13,000 of poly and university school loans. I'm officially debt free, and looking at my bankbook now, I can totally relate to my low income patients. haha.
But strangely, I don't feel a thing. I guess the pinch only comes in when I know travel locations and choosing to eat my favorite food would have more limitations now but its okay, I will start from ground zero again. There will be endless places to go, the world to explore. Do it with a purpose, not do it with envy or just for the experience. I like this feeling knowing that I'm contented. Truly am. Thank God. I'm glad that I managed to give my parents the money to spend it now before they get any older and are unable to use it for any holiday trips.
Its sad to know that education comes with a price, as to me, everyone should have access to education and knowledge. Just like in Cambodia where the richer ones get to go for private lessons, making them a step ahead of the poorer kids. I understand there there is no utopia and I am not asking for complete equality, but I think that education disparity is making the difference wider around the world.
Our world because so monetary now. How you protect your life depends on how much insurance you get. How a good stable life is dependent on how much savings you have. Marriages has become so asset based that people get houses before they even proposed, investments has become so prevalent that if you don't get into the quick easy money industry, you are just too stupid to not grab hold of opportunities. It is really about being practical? We are just letting the society pull us by. Are we truly living the way we wanted? Or just assimilating into the society's standard of "quality of life"?.
I guess it should really be about treasuring your everyday life, knowing the purpose and spending genuine time with people that matters. I want to lead a life knowing that what I do, the ability to wake up everyday and step out of my house to wherever I have to go to was purposeful. I no longer want to see myself complaining about how busy life is, or about the job that I don't like. Sometimes I think Singaporeans complain so much, but they are not doing anything about it. They just end up doing for the sick of it, twirling themselves into the monetary cyclone. Different people lives for a different purpose and I must learn to know what is my purpose and be accepting of myself and of the difference in humans and their expectations of life.
I have never seen myself come so far in Social Work and i am glad. Today on my way to work, it suddenly just came into my mind that it was a tough struggle from age 18 all the way till today. 8 years of preserving in ensuring that I get a degree eventually in social work and found passion in my job.
On Saturday, after handing in my assignment, I shall make a trip down to Mr A house and hopefully able to get this agency to repair his wheelchair for him. I hope that will give him a good new year at least? :) Never done such things before, mostly through work's protocol, but this one really hard to follow protocol, it will take forever!
This year, I told myself that I am not going to buy a single piece of clothing's, because sometimes I think that a lot of things we do are unnecessary and too excessive. We waste our time on clothes and dressing up to put up an image for others to judge us or to prove ourself and our capability in monetary success and beauty. This has got to go. I'm really pretty immature last time.
Strangely, I have two colleagues who just donated their clothes to me without me asking last week and Iw as shocked. I'm really blessed. It felt like what I believe in was supported by someone, perhaps God.
Attended my first bible studies, and I met a single mother with 4 children. Didn't get to talk to her much but she was very helpful in guiding me through the bible and telling me where to get my notes. She also asked me about social work and was sharing that she has a daughter who is thinking of getting into this path but is encountering difficulties. :) Can't wait for my second bible class.
Last week, the meet up with Esther and the team was pretty exciting to me. Esther is really an amazing woman and for her to come to Singapore and sell her Baray idea to SOTA and many other schools to help support Baray and make this world a little more humane is really amazing. Truly a wonderful woman. Of course, it ends off with sushi tei and I can't say enough of how blessed I am to be able to get to enjoy good food, with good friends and for a good purpose!
There is gonna be more to life....
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posted : Monday, February 04, 2013
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I just need to sleep well. read well and eat well. Stay focus and you will realized that there are a lot of small things that are unnecessary and do only those that matters.
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posted : Tuesday, January 29, 2013
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Day 1 "Your life is what your thoughts make it".
Thumbs up for getting myself focus. Tons of things to do off my checklist. But I'm glad I finally flip open my textbook. The semester has started. Didn't complete what I wanted, but its okay. Cut down the nonsense. Go right into what's important and stay focus. Sleep. Morning Run. Work. Study. Life is going to be different and awesome starting from today. |
